9DP2DT-IVF#4

...Also known as Day Before Blood Test Day.

Same drill as last time.

We'll let you know...

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In other news, my conversation with the clinic today:

Me:  Hi, my friends kids gave me a sore throat and cold. Is there anything I can take to help with the congestion?

Nurse:  *Cackles hysterically for 35 minutes*

Me: *Blink Blink*

Nurse:  Nah, man!  It just sucks to be you! *More cackling as she hangs up on me*

Me:  *Blink Blink, hangs up phone*

Me: *Calls Acupuncturist*  I can't make the appointment.  I'm sick as a dog.

Her:  You're congested!!

Me:  Yeah

Her:  Come in!!  I can help with that!!

Me:  I'll be right there.

One hour later...

Me:  Takes deep breath BECAUSE. I. CAN!

Me:  *Hears Hallelujah Chorus*

Her:  Better?

Me:  *Thinks about proposing*  Yes thank you!

Her:  Good luck tomorrow.  I'll put you here on the books with a heart and sending you light!

Me:  Thank you!

8DP2DT-IVF#4

So, after a lovely bought of food poisoning, which included chills like I have never experienced before.  ( I couldn't get the thermometer in my mouth I was shaking so bad) I have had a splitting headache since last night and when I sat down for dinner tonight, discovered my throat hurts.  *sigh*

Anyone else wanna kick me when I'm down?

7DP2DT-IVF#4

What has extreme stomach pain, followed by alternating rounds of barfing and...other stuff, rounded out by extreme chills and concludes with hot flashes?

That would be me.  Thank you, food poisoning.  Like I didn't have enough to worry about.  Does God hate me, or what?

6DP2DT-IVF#4 - Pt. 2

I called my RE this am and left a message.  I said the spotting we had discussed has started again.  Any suggestions?

I got a voice mail because I was out, and the nurse said he said, we could try the PIO ( Progesterone in Oil) shots.  (Those would be the ginormous intramuscular needles in the ass every night).  The thing about it is, it probably won't help.  I think it's just something else "to do".  I won't really be getting any more progesterone than I already am.  So, I'm mulling it over.

You have any thoughts one way or another?

Here is a video of this poor girl having to give it to herself.  I couldn't do it.  I swear!

Anyway, can't say as if I'm moved to do that.  I have until tomorrow to decide...I'll sleep on it.

6DP2DT-IVF#4

Yesterday's post was written out of pain and panic.  This far (though I have only been up 30 minutes) there is a lot less panic and pain, but there is a lot of resignation.

The reason for the freak out was I started spotting again.  So, what can I say, I feel the jig is up.  While I am not freaking out, I am resigned to the fact of another failed cycle and am beginning to look towards surgery.

5DP2DT-IVF#4 - Pt. 2

So I had a complete and total melt down.  I did what I do.  Go take a shower and cry like death is upon me.  Complete vulnerability.  Naked, wet, in the shower, crying uncontrollably, your heart and emotions, naked and wet.  Muttering to my husband, who has come in to find me in this disturbing state and asks,"Why are you crying what's wrong?"

Me: "I'm tired.  I can't take it.  It's too hard.  I can't do this."

He knows me.  He let me be after a few minutes.  Probably to start smoking again.

I went to acupuncture and it calmed me down.

A good friend gaveme some advice about doing some natural things.  I'm doing them.

My head hurts.  My eyes are red and puffy.  I have two sick cats (not the kittens) that are concerning me.  I feel like a failure.  And my homework answers for this week suck.

I give up.

5DP2DT-IVF#4

Jinx.